Saturday, September 12, 2009

[It] Won't Ever Change

I'm tired of begging, pleading, being patient, understanding, asking, waiting, going along and pretending it's normal when it is not.
It had me so down & depressed then angry that my hands were shaking and my heart was pounding so I had to just get to a quiet place to calm down. [It] won't ever change no matter how much I pray for it to.


Kraxpelax said...
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FLHX_Dave said...

IT...If IT is the same IT that I am then yeah, it ain't gonna change.

Not that you asked but truth hurts sometimes. On the other hand, truth can free you. Sometimes we tend to try and force a nut on a bolt, only the strip the threads that made it work in the first place.

It is what it is Wooley. It's just as simple as that. Is the reward worth the suffering? If yes then continue to carry that cross with integrity. No one is perfect. Long suffering is an admirable trait, but we are not to be forever suffering.

The biggest mistake I have ever made in my life was pretending to be happy and normal when I wasn't. It all eventually blew up in my face and destroyed many people because I wasn't what they all thought I was. Your normal is not mine, nor mine is yours.

I'm gonna say it again. "The grass is always greener where all the cows are shitting"

Ok, I'll shut up now but there are my thoughts on this deal you have up here.

mq01 said...

wooley, i have a question. why are you praying for change instead of happiness, joy and/or acceptance? im just nosey...sorry :)

WooleyBugger said...

Dave,I get just what your saying there and it is much to think about.

mq01, all of those you mention are included in the change comment I made. Change covers a lot of ground.
Nah, your not being nosey so it's all good.