Saturday, February 12, 2011

No Wind In My Sails

I don't know what is was today, there was no wind in my sails. Last night I was out in my shop until late, very late as I do when I'm into something. I keep on while telling myself "just one more minute and I'll stop" then I find myself plugging on after that minute has gone. Before I know it's happening my eyes start getting tired and my mind goes off in several directions of possibilities. It's then I notice no progress is being done. When I shut off the drill press, bench grinder, heater, radio and lights twas well after 1 a.m as I stumbled through the pathway to the house.
I crawled into bed with a good feeling in what I'd completed but a bit unsettled about the bender not being finished how I wanted. The larger bender I fabed up from junk was doing pretty good until made the tube I was working on stop making the curve and instead folded the tube right at a point that ruined it beyond repair.

I guess many other things are in my subconscious bothering me with worry as I supress it during woken hours. During the night I woke up a few times even being dogged tired. There was the good dream that turned into a nightmare and it was still very vivid when I awoke with a start an exclamation at noon. I had slepted for the most part of ten hours. I was pissed at myself as there were things I wanted to do today. Getting up, smoked a cigarette, getting some coffee and a muffin then plopping down in my easy chair to watch some TV for a minute, Jeremiah Johnson was on and well, motivation was to watch it. The wind just wasn't in my sails even after I got dressed. For a thirty minute strand in the shop I was just not into it so cut off the lights. All these other un-said things are bringing me down and zapping any energy I had. Soon it will pass I'm hoping.

9 comments:

Baron's Life said...

Hey shit happens...take a break and get some rest to restore your sanity...then it will all fall into place

WooleyBugger said...

I know your right Baron, just one of those hum drum days. Although I like winter I'm so ready for it to be over with this year.

zi said...

Days like this are a hint that you need to unplug...It's all good. As a matter of fact, I thought this post was such a good idea that I sat in the garage yesterday and did....NOTHING. I just dinked, cleaned tools, and hung up picts of half naked bikes...with chicks in there someplace.

FLHX_Dave said...

Somehow I was logged in as "ZI"...errr...so...that was me...I think? That's what I get for using a public computer.

WooleyBugger said...

So we will call you Zi Dave now? Half Naked bikes with chicks are always good...I think.

Billy Jones said...

We need to ride somewhere.

WooleyBugger said...

Now that's the second best Idea I've heard this week. Your right Billy.

Billy Jones said...

I'm off Friday but I do have an afternoon doctor's appointment.

boomer64 said...

Get on the bike - ride for 200 miles, get dinner, repeat. Works every time.