Saturday, June 24, 2006

Where's Wooley ?

I have had a few things to deal with as of late and just have not been feeling like posting. I'm sorry to say that I have not even checked any of my e-mails other than the ones from my Pop about my mother.

My mother had a stroke over memorial week and that has me worried. My faithful old truck decided to lay some big repair bills on me as well with one being a starter fire which left me stranded on the highway on the way to work one morning. Needless to say, my wallet has taken a good hit as things were coming one behind the other. There has not even been the time to work on my book. Other more personal issues have been leaving me extra tired and low on energy on every level. I'm sick and tired of anger and actually have become numb to what is going on. A few people are angry with me and have forgotten what all I have done for them over the years. I wasn't keeping a score card but it seems they were.

My son has not ever listened to bits and pieces of my rough childhood but on fathers day weekend and earlier this week he and I had the chance to talk about them. Just he and I, and we both learned something from each other. It is not something that is easy for me to talk about but he wanted to know and I needed to tell him so he would have a better understanding of me and I of him. Some of what he has told me were things that I felt only I was seeing but he surprised me. I'm glad we had the time to talk, I mean really talk.
Me, I am at a crossroads and not sure which way to go.


On another note: My friend Charlie has loaned me some movies to watch which helps get away from it all. I watched one called "American History X" earlier this evening. It was not what I was expecting at all. It is an eye opener movie, for me at least, and the ending lines hit home as I said almost the same thing to my son not that long ago about the anger issue. The movie has a tough beginning and content to deal with but if you can get through it and see it to the end, it just might leave you staring into space at the strong message it delivers. If you have ever had anger issues or know of anyone who is having them, then watch this movie.

4 comments:

scaredofu said...

Glad to see your post, missed your musings, and I'll keep your mother in my prayers.

KT Did said...

Hi,
Seems we have been on the same road, you and I. I haven't posted since the 7th and my life is in the gravel. But, I am coming out of it and hope to be posting this weekend.

I did see OC Choppers today, they had the Junction on for the kids. If we keep thinking about them, maybe we will come out of our slump. If not, time will cure it.

You take care now...

KT

Biker Betty said...

Hi Wooley,

I've been out of the loop for almost two weeks and just now getting around to everyone's blogs. I'm sorry to hear about your mother and I hope she's doing better. Sorry to hear you're having problems. I hate people who keep tabs. That's just not the way life is. People help each other just because they like to, not to keep track.

Take Care & I will keep you and your mom & dad in my prayers, Betty

WooleyBugger said...

Thanks for all the kind comments. It is a rocky road I'm on at the moment but the love of my brothers is helping keep me looking at a brighter future.

My mothers stroke was in the brain stem which effected her eyes and speech. She was having double vision and only her right eye would move when she looked around. The left eye was staying fixed straight ahead. She did not know her speech was slurred and was frustrated when having to keep repeating herself. She later told me that to her, her speech was fine.

She is doing better with medication the last several weeks.